Older Than My Entertainers

I woke up one day and I was 23. I didn't believe it the day I woke up, and I don't believe it now. That's not good. I don't believe it because I'm stagnant. I'm right where I was when I was 22, and 21, and 20. You get the point. At one point in time, 23 seemed so old and so grown up. It doesn't anymore. I'm struggling to pay my student loans with a degree in journalism that, to this point, has not done much for me. Sure, a few interviews here and there, a few articles, but it seems that without 5 years of professional experience in the publishing world the working world has little to offer. How does that make sense to somebody who just earned their journalism degree?

This is not meant to be a "woe is me" post. That little anecdote was to let you, the reader, know where I'm coming from. Now, at 23, my two main points of entertainment, music and sports, are made and done by people who are younger than me. That's weird to me. It all started when I was 21 and heard a few songs by the band All Time Low. The songs were catchy, so I decided to give them a chance by putting effort into listening to their music and showing a bit of fandom. Upon this fandom, I found out that three of the four members were 20 and one was still 19. That was a weird moment for me. And so it began: me being older than people in positions that I once idolized.

I know everybody goes through said phase, but I think what is most disheartening for me is my lack of full time employment despite my draining search.

Shortly after my first encounter with younger success, the Eagles drafted DeSean Jackson, who is my age. The next year, they drafted LeSean McCoy, who is younger. Flyers star, James Van Riemsdyk, is younger than my younger sister, pitching phenom Stephen Strasburg turns 22 this year, neither the Braves power hitting monster, Jason Heyward, nor Marlins outfielder, Mike Stanton, can legally buy beer. The list goes on and on and on. It will continue to go on, so I'll stop talking about it. It's just weird for me. My dad told me to get used to it. I will, eventually.

I enjoy seeing bands like Taking Back Sunday and Brand New simply because the crowd is older- which makes for a chill time. It creates a nostalgic bond between everybody in the building. Perhaps a subconscious reason for my fondness of these shows is that the bands are older than me. I'm not sure if that's a reason. Maybe. That's the beauty of subconscious thought.

I currently play guitar and I remember playing just about every sport there is. I was good, but in retrospect, I really wish I tried harder.

Like I said, I'd be dealing with this a lot better if I was employed full time in my desired field. In the field I invested over $50,000 over four years to get into. I know I'll find something eventually.

If you're going through the same phase, how do you feel?

This is me venting. This is me ending this post.